Because I can

I'm going to try to restart this thing again.

I'm now a mom.  And I'm as spacey as before, if not more so.  He'll be 2 in December.  Which means 22 months of making me fall in love every day while wondering if I will survive the next one.  Seriously.  Hand(s).  Full.

Plus I was just diagnosed with something fun and new - fibromyalgia.  So let's try to navigate all that and restart my nonsensical word vomit.

Some posts will be talking about just me.  Some about my adorable husband clone (that's my son).  And some I'll do a little throwback to how I got here.  Ready?  Go!

Hello? HELLO? Is this thing still on?

So what seems like a long time ago in a place far far away I started a blog. I felt I needed to say a lot of things and I felt like I wanted people to read them.

And then life happened. In a different way than what I had anticipated. Things have been great, not so great. Down right awful. But - that's life. Or my life at least.

And THEN suddenly, one day very recently I decided I needed to blog again. The problem? I don't have a "thing" I need to blog about. Before it was about my medical journey with my day to day life thrown in. But, thankfully, a majority of my major medical journey is hopefully over.

Right now though I have something really big coming up soon. Like way sooner than I ever imagined. It always seemed like something that would happen in the future. The super distant future. A future I would laugh about with my friends as we enjoyed all of our awesome 20's.

Yes, that's right. The dreaded 29.1.

Some people *ahem* Miller *cough*cough* add letters onto the 29, but then I would truly forget what age I am when I got to like 29H. So after some debate I went with the number system.

It seems like just yesterday I was telling my little itty bitty baby brother that when he was graduating high school and was 18 I would be this mysterious 29.1. And he would call me OLD and we would laugh because it was SO far away and would almost never happen for at least another eleventybillion years. And he's almost 18. Graduation is in June for him. And May brings the 29.1.

Ok. I do have a point to all this besides lamenting about how fast time is flying and how nauseating it is making me.

I am not big on resolutions, but I have been wanting to make some life changes lately. With this whole big life event coming up soon I've decided to take my friend Amanda's brilliant idea to break things down month by month and set some goals for myself. So each month I will posting new set of FIVE personal goals and at the end of each month of will write about how it's gone. I may even give some updates during, because I DO want to start blogging more. For real this time.

Here goes *big DEEP sigh*

January 5th-February 5th

1. Eat out ONE time per week (drinks with the girls do not count as long as I don't order food)

2. Do one house related project per week (paint frames, fixing bathroom caulk, painting trim, cleaning out a room, etc)

3. Drink 64 oz of water every single day.

4. Keep a food journal for 5 days a week every week.

5. Scan 5 photos (as a minimum) 5 days a week every week.

Ok, there it is. Notice I am doing a lot of things in 5's. I like the number 5. I like numbers. It's how I function - to count things out, to find a way to incorporate things via numbers.

And yes, yesterday I DID drink 64oz of water and kept a food journal! Yay!!

Wish me luck!

*hugs and love*

mj

May the Fourth Be With You

I kept reading this today on facebook and had NO idea WHY people kept saying this. I mean, there is a fourth of EVERY month.

Then my coworker said it and I was like "seriously, no one said that in April!!" He was like "right, but it's MAY... MAY the fourth be with you (odd, "are you really this stupid" look in my general direction)..."

Yes, yes I am.

*hangs head in shame*

This reminds me of this time I realized what the phrase "shut your mouth when you are talking to me" REALLY meant. I heard it when we saw "Talladega Nights" with a bunch of friends. It wasn't until a little over a YEAR later that someone said it to me (for the millionth time) that it somehow clicked and I blurted out... "wait, you CAN'T talk if your mouth is shut." No one realized I didn't get it because I giggled whenever I heard it. But I giggled because I thought it was stupid and didn't make sense.

*le sigh*

And THIS is how I consider starting my semi return to blogging. I will try to keep doing this once a week and no more than a two week break in between. But who am I kidding? It will probably be another month again. :-)

Speaking of months, it is MAY.

My birthday is in MAY. Which means... it's my BIRTHDAY MONTH!! Yayayay!!

Yes, I am that person.

*hugs and kisses*

mj

Whatever Lola wants...

Lola gets...

And my new bike is named Lola.

She is an ORANGE Felt Cafe 8 Deluxe.

There is a stock photo. I'll post more photos of her later.

We went on an 11.5 mile ride today on the Rail Trail with Josh. She was FANTASTIC.

In other bike related news, tomorrow is Josh's first race of the season. Wish him luck!!

*hugs and kisses*

mj

Still alive.

I promise. Just busy and trying to get all my life into a groove. Unfortunately for my readers, but fortunately for my "real" life, I have been busy and active. The weather has been mostly nice enough to be outside exercising and enjoying it. There has also been lots of work for me as well at the shop, and our house has been grossly neglected on the cleaning end.

When I think I can handle some computer time without letting it get overwhelming I'll come back more regularly. Until then I leave you with this photo from me today. I was "dressing up" a bit for Easter with the in laws.

And here I am driving our BRAND NEW 2010 Mazda 3, 5-door, 6-speed. It is STICK people. I drove it for 30 minutes ish with several stops(lights and signs), merging on a highway, getting off a highway, passing cars and driving on back roads with only ONE problem. I popped the clutch pulling out from a stop sign on a hill. Josh told me he'd give me a B+ overall. WHOA.

I don't really drive stick EVER, so this is a HUGE accomplishment. What better time to learn than when you are 27 and have already been driving for 11 years right??

*hugs and kisses*

mj

Learning to Ride a Bike

No not me. I know how to ride a bike. In fact I have owned several bikes. The first one I remember was pink with a pink banana seat with white hibiscus flowers and a white basket that had pink flowers on it. I put these little neon colored pieces of plastic on the spokes that clacked when I rode.

Behind the seat was a raised metal bar that my Pap (grandfather) would hold onto while I rode. No training wheels for this girl. One day he just let go. I looked back and realized he was gone. I was so happy until I totally wasn't watching and rode right off the sidewalk and crashed. Good thing Pap was a great cheerleader and got me right back on the bike. It is such a great memory I will always cherish.

A couple weekends ago we took our friend's daughter to Cycleworks in Wrightsville, PA. She's almost big enough for one size bike, and a little too big for the size down. She rode the littler bike for a while because it had training wheels.

She leans a little to the side, but she's new. She'll get the hang of it.

Unfortunately although she liked the little purple bike, it wouldn't have lasted long as she would have outgrown it too quickly.

Luckily they had a used bike in the next size up that was in the basement. No training wheels on that one, so she needed daddy's help.

Still got that lean. :-)

She was a little overwhelmed with all the grown ups talking so I grabbed her and we went to the front of the store to have a little alone girl talk. Very maturely we discussed the two bikes. Did she like the purple one because of the color and how it rode, or because it had training wheels? Or was she ok with the white and pink bike, but just wasn't comfortable because of the lack of training wheels that could be put on.

After some very adult discussions (she's only 5) and some snuggling, we called her mom up to talk about our decision. She then called daddy and Josh up to let them all know. We had decided that the pink and white bigger bike was what she wanted, but she wanted training wheels. Smart girl.

Well luckily, not only did they have some training wheels for the used bike, BUT they also had a brand new bike that was the same (just a year newer). Hmmm. Mommy and daddy were looking for a bike for her grandmother's house too. After some discussions with the bike guys, they agreed to lower the price on both if they bought both bikes.

So our little goober got a brand new bike for her parent's house and the same bike in the used version for her grandparent's house!!

The newer bike is in the foreground.

I only hope we can create some fun memories for her when she's older that she will look back on fondly as I do mine.

Love you my little goober.

*hugs and kisses*

mj

Gaper Day 2010

Say what? A "gaper" according to urban dictionary is

1. A gaper is a skiier or snowboarder who is completely clueless. Usually distiungished by their bright colored clothes and a gaper gap, the gap between goggles and a helment/hat. Gapers also do the "Gaper Tuck" which is an attempt at being a ski racer by tucking, however, it is done incorrectly with the poles sticking straight up like thunderbolts and lighting, very very frightning! Gapers also sit at the bottom of jumps and try and go big off table tops in the park.

or

2. A skier or snowboarder who sucks and is usually spotted wearing clothing from 1983, but other clothing styles for them do exist. A dead giveaway of a gaper is when their pants are tucked into their boots and the famous "Gaper Gap" (a gap between the helmet/hat and the goggles). Gapers sometimes temporarily inhabit the entrance to a terrain park. They will sit on their ass for a good 5-10 minutes talking about what they are going to do of a that "jump" or "rail" while everyone behind them goes before them and they stare at them with their mouth gaped open. Once they finally decide to leave their home at the entrance of the terrain park, the gaper will eventually decide to either roll over the jump and mess up all the lips, or they will try and actually hit the jump. If this occurs, they generally end up coming up half way short of the landing on their ass and yardsale, while the person behind them runs them over and/or yells at them. Gapers may also make turns or snowplow down green runs and sometime try to act cool by crouching and sticking their ski poles in the air but are totally oblivioius to the fact that they look even more stupid than they previously were. Gapers often find themselves on the top of a black diamond run because they are dumbasses and can't read a map. When they approach the run, they may either turn around, stare at it, sit down on the top of it, or just simply walk down the side of it. Gapers often have trouble getting on and off lifts and the lift operator gets really frustrated with them because he is required to stop the lift. A fun game to play while skiing or riding behind a gaper is called "Follow the Gaper". The game is played by following the gaper's path and looking as bad as they are. The game will usually last until they identify your presence, however it is possible to extend the game even past this point.

Now this has nothing to do with the above, but if you don't use urban dictionary to find slang terms, then you are TOTALLY missing out. It has helped me find the true meaning of supermaning that hoe, and other such sexual references in songs. It's hysterical!

So back to gaper day. A group of friends has chosen a day at a local ski mountain and decided to dress in 80's gear, drink beer and have a great time. Who wouldn't want to join?? Unfortunately we missed it last year due to my surgeries, but we were all ready this year.

I raided my mom's closet for our old ski gear (yes, from the 80's, yes she still has it), raided my own closet for some awesome clothing I own (yes, from the 80's and YES *I* still have it), raided a good friend's closet and off we went.

Oh yes, here we are. I rocked my mom's old orange snow outfit, and Josh had our friend Amanda's jacket that had REMOVABLE sleeves. Whoa.

Of course we ran into some old college friend's of Josh. His old rugby teammates. Ha. We were like "ummm, we don't normally dress like this, but we are with a group..." Awkward!! Oh well.

I kind of feel like the photos will speak for themselves.

The jacket on my friend Kandice (the upper left photo, center girl) was my jacket in the 80's. The orange one I am wearing was my mom's whole outfit. :-)

The boys did a shirtless run. Oh yes, they all went down the mountain together like this.

And for the best moment of the day.

On the right, our friend. On the left, an unsuspecting mountain patron wearing the EXACT one piece our friend had purchased last year on ebay. When he approached her, she was like "I've had this outfit for 30 years!" Radically AWESOME huh??

This was how we spent Saturday March 6, 2010.

*hugs and kisses*

mj

He turned 16 today

My "little" brother that is.

Such an amazing kid.

Here we are in our "christmas pj's" this year. He doesn't look so little does he?

Love him a lot and super proud of him. *big smile*

Happy 16th Birthday to my "little" brother. Drive safe and don't speed like mom does. Lol.

*hugs and kisses*

mj

Photos from My Life Break

February 15-21

Usually my parent's house has snow even when we don't. They are about 2ish hours north of us and in the mountains. This time though they missed BOTH of the big storms that we'd had. So when I got home the ground was mainly bare of all snow. Weird.

Monday night though (my first night there) look what I saw!!

Apparently I brought it with me!

Other notable photos that week. I sent this one to Josh and told him I bought a new hat.

He was not amused. Such a weirdo. Lol.

Mom and I were playing dress up while shopping obviously.

I also found these at Walmart.

They are super yummy and not at all gross like people think. Mainly peanut butter flavored with just a hint of strawberry, everyone I've forced to try them love them. SUPER addictive.

I did try to get a photo of it actually snowing.

But with screens in all the windows it didn't turn out too well.

And here is a photo of Sassy watching the snow and waiting for her two boyfriends to come visit.

They evaded me all week. I think she told them I was mean or something because the evening after I left they showed up. Ugh.

I got home on Friday and we had a party to attend. It was a fondue and game night at our friend's house and it was SO MUCH FUN. Josh was super sleep deprived and it made him absolutely hilarious. Next post will discuss Josh's sleep deprivation. Lol.

Saturday was a lazy day.

Sunday I was back up near my parent's house. Unfortunately, my family couldn't meet me. I had gone up with Kandice to pick up a puppy. Long story, but the puppy is Kandice's new puppy Masi (MAY-cee)'s sister. Did you get all that?

Here is the former Lucy Lou. Her new owner's renamed her.

Kandice and I did get to eat lunch at Wegmans with her parents. Oh I love Wegmans. We also grabbed some premade sushi for when we got home for dinner. And when we stopped at Sheetz I found some coconut M&M's (Can you tell I'm on a chocolate kick lately?? - Easter is around the corner!) that I shared for dessert. Lol.

So that is all for now about that week. Can't wait to tell you what Josh was doing while I was gone!!

*hugs and kisses*

mj

Valentine's Day 2010

We had to kind of skip Valentine's Day last year because I was being discharged from the hospital. I did get flowers and a funny card though.

And yes I realize it is an overly commercialized day. It is also the day Josh and I started "dating" 8 years ago - or as I like to say it "the day we decided to stop having sex with any other people." Lol.

All I asked for this year was a bacon, egg and cheese mcgriddle (I even had a coupon!)

This is what I woke up to!

Yum! I hadn't had McDonald's in well over a month or more!

When I went downstairs I was surprised to find these.

Even though I said no card or flowers. They are beautiful though!

Later that day we did our usual celebration type thing - a mom and pop sub place.

This time we placed our order at Jim and Nena's in Hallam, ran down to Mack's ice cream for some of their amazing cookies and cream ice cream, picked up our food that was ready and headed home to snuggle, watch movies and eat.

I love spending any day like that.

*hugs and kisses*

mj